Hold Me Closer, Tony Danza

Last night I went to my first ballet class in 10 years. Its part of my New Years Resolution. The resolution being to challenge myself, try new things, grow as a person, and other bullshit things of that nature. Seriously though, I'm making some good strides on this resolution thing. I'm taking a beginner adult ballet class at Ballet Austin two nights a week. I signed up for a continuing education Literature class at UT. (I am ridiculously excited about talking literature with other people instead of just talking inside my head). I'm even trying to eat healthier. Reducing my caffeine intake isn't going so well (8am! I have to be at work at 8am!) but I did buy organic edamame at the store the other night. I think that is the single healthiest thing I have ever purchased. I haven't actually eaten any yet but even just having it in my freezer, smiling back at me in its little green bag every time I open the door to get more ice cream, makes me feel much healthier. I also signed up online at this website called DailyPlan. You put in all your information (they want really weird measurements so you're going to have to employ someone to help you if you're going to do this), tell them what you want (lose weight, tone up, healthier heart, etc), and they send you an email every day telling you what the workout for the day is. So far I have soundly ignored these. I get the smug little email from DailyPlan every day, I feel guilty for about half a second, and then I delete it without so much as a second though. I do my piddly 35-minute run a couple nights a week and guilt myself to death about eating my weight in girl scout cookies. Then I suck in my gut, button my pants, and get on with my life.
So who knows if I'll lose any weight, tone up, enrich my mind, or gain new skills this year. But at least so far I'm trying.

Shame

I kind of like that new Blue October song called "Into the Ocean." This kind of makes me hate myself.